shaping your own body as a trans person is a magical thing. a friend of mine interviewed me this morning about being transgender. he asked me how i would describe my dysphoria, and i said that last year, when my daily dysphoria was at its worst, i'd cover my mirror with towels or paper or anything i had in my room, because my shower in my dorm is right in front of the mirror; there is no avoiding it. there are days i cant shower because of it. but i dont want to be afraid of seeing my body. i cant wait til i can start t and get top surgery, so i can shower freely and look in the mirror freely and live freely. also i went swim short shopping today and looking at myself in the mirror in too-short-for-me shorts did NOT help lmfao. anyways, he asked me what my hope was for the future, and i said i want to get grey hair and wrinkles. i want to shape my own body and live a long life with it.