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april 17, 2025 more scary things i did: chose a printer, mailed printers to say i chose another printer, i finished my photography task (for which i had to clean more than take pictures), played with kids to give their parents a chance to talk to my parents without being constantly interrupted lol, sent a letter, went home early on a family event, took a nap (without feeling guilty). i still have a lot of work to do, but i got about half of my spreads ready now i think. another half to go. yay.
ooh another thing i did: i put a new cover on a sketchbook i got. it was one of those sketchbooks with a van gogh paintin on the cover and idk i did Not like it. so i put a newspaper picture i liked around it! i tried to make this a while ago but i didnt succeed bc my hand was still in a cast.... yeah. im happy with it now though, even tho it looks a bit shitty.
ive spent the last two hours straight trying to get this one spread right, and i still havent gotten it right. oh well.

april 14, 2025 ive been doing big scary things lately. calling people i dont know to get information. mailing my teachers even though its easter break. working on the project. its giving me crazy anxiety but hey im doing it! i leave my phone downstairs. i still need to text someone about something and im dreading it. ill ask my cousin or my mom for help. im drawing directly in ink. im working on indesign on my laptop without the charger as a reminder of hey, keep working or the laptop will die. ive only worked on it for an hour and the battery is down to 20%, it started at 100. i finished a book i downloaded ages ago. i go on a walk without my binder on (okay thats bc i still dont have enough strenght in my hand to take it off again, but still. i did it.) im working. a lot. 4 more weeks til i have to present my project. scary. but im doing it.

march 18, 2025 autism assesment questions are so weird. i know its been said a lot but lmao how am i supposed to know wether or not my facial expressions match what im sayn?? "in stressful moments i show rigid or non flexible behaviours that seem odd" idk???????? ask the people around me i dont know what i do T-T and define "social situations" like are these people that i know people that i hate like clarify pls

march 17, 2025 i learned about a very cool local magazine that made an open call and im so tempted to send my portfolio (that im still putting together) but i also know that if i have one (1) more thing on my mind i will Explode. sad. i might order their last magazine though it was circus themed and the cover looks very very fun. (link for people that are interested)

march 8, 2025 im a bit scared for next week. i cannot fit into my binder with my cast, and i havent gone to school without a binder in like over a year. so yeah will be interesting. and i was so happy with my new watch and now i cant even put it on TvT its fine.

march 6, 2025 the doctor said if its not better by tomorrow i should go to the hospital. fun fact in my nearly 18 years of life i have never fractured or broken anything lmao so this is a first. i can type a bit with my right hand, not like i usually would but i can manage. it still hurts though, this morning my dad helped put on a support bandage(?) and auch. its still a bit swollen and some places have more clear bruises now. the doctor had to laugh when i told him how it happened which is understandable lmao. i'm going to a play today from an actor me and my mom really like and when we were buying tickets we realised it is a 6+ show. were still going hah i think its going to be very fun, i like his acting style and i think the story is lovely. today ive been slowly typing some homework and i'll try to draw a bit bc i need to have a project finished by next week and i'm nowhere near finished.
(update: went to the hospital today and my hand is broken ...)

march 5, 2025 guess who accidentally hit his hand against the wall and now mightve fractured his hand ... peak clumsy behavior. this was yesterday and my parents thought it would be better today but its not lmao. it hurts to move it even slightly and its a bit swollen. im going to the doctor in a few hours. typing is hard with one hand. all of february i was like "im not gonna work on my prject, ill do it in the vacation" and now i cant work on it either bc of course its my drawing hand that hurts TvT
we went to an animal sanctuary for my brothers birthday and it was super fun. weve been going there for over 10 years and everytime it feels a bit like coming home. and every time is different because they get new animals or animals leave to another place. probably the fennec foxes will leave next bc theyre very old and i noticed there weren't as many as usual. theyve been there since before we started going and usually they get around 10 years of age. and we saw the bear cubs for the last time as well, because they will go to a new place soon. they were playing in the water, it was lovely to see.

february 24, 2025 my friend was happy with her birthday card. yesterday i went to take pictures for my photography class and asked my grandparents to model. they didn't misgender me as much as usual (once or twice compared to each time they open their mouth) so thats a huge accomplishment. it gets better and worse yknow, and i do want to spend time with them as i notice it helps them adjust (even though ive been out for two whole years) but when they "accidentally" deadname me or call me a girl then i don't really feel like it lmao. but the photos turned out rlly nice and im glad. i progressed a lot with my project in my animation class today.
a moment of appreciation for bread. i don't know what the bread is called in english but my baker calls it abdijbrood and its so soft and i love it. love love love bread.
neocities comment by mism4tchedsocks that reads: "yall i was just drawing & minding my business, all of a sudden my teacher stands behind me with the new intern saying “yeah oliver struggles a lot with anatomy” like…. my guy you never taught us. my teacher just gives us paper, says draw that, and lets us go about our day. sometimes he corrects something and yeah my anatomy is not perfect but jesus" with three crying emojis at the end. (transcript: neocities comment by mism4tchedsocks that reads:"yall i was just drawing & minding my business, all of a sudden my teacher stands behind me with the new intern saying “yeah oliver struggles a lot with anatomy” like…. my guy you never taught us. my teacher just gives us paper, says draw that, and lets us go about our day. sometimes he corrects something and yeah my anatomy is not perfect but jesus" with three crying emojis at the end.)
then that happened aswell lmao. still a bit angry about it but yknow its fine. ill get better at my anatomy the more i draw. and if my anatomy is that bad then he should come tell me and correct me, it's his job after all.