mism4tched monthly

february 2026

desperately want to work on my site but ive missed 3 weeks worth of classes (of which only 5 theory classes in total but a shit ton of practical/atelier classes,,,, no idea how the fuck ill have to redo the silk screen printing classes but well see). tbf ive mostly missed time and that sucks. want to catch up on everything but also new assignments keep coming and rah. idk.
had a follow up appointment with my endocrinologist, all was well. currently commuting bc my nipples are Not doing so great after top surgery (also yes i had top surgery wooo. didnt have much pain thankfully but did get a gigantic allergic reaction to the tape they used and when they took it off after a week parts of my skin ripped off so uh. yay. its better now) and a nurse is coming over daily. i dont want the people at my dorm knowing im trans and also im on the fifth floor and the elevator has been broken for nearly two months and just. fuck no. bike parking is on -1 so everyday 6 floors down 6 floors up???????? dying. in the morning i enjoy trains and in the evening i hate trains. 15 year old boys are fucking annoying and have 0 social skills in group. do not throw candy from one side to the other side of the wagon. i dont care that your friends are there.
i keep forgetting im like an adult now. i was sick for a while (maybe thats why my nipples arent healing as fast as the horizontal incision) and my mom brought me to the doctors office (because i cant drive lol) and she was like hey. do you want me to come inside with you or not? and i was like stay with me please im scared. even tho i know the doctor and have been going there for all my life. i go to the doctor and suddenly im 5 again.
idk most of my month has been recovering tbh. i think i mightve hurt a rib as well bc of the compressive vest i had to wear. laughing out loud.
im rambling and tired and not making sense idk im just typing everything that comes across my brain. im tired and tired of being at home and tired of my nipples not healing fast or good but im very happy i get to go to school again. ive missed my friends.